Saturday, March 31, 2007
no canto más que el viento
This afternoon, I hiked around Palouse Falls with Karlan, Reuben, Jess P, and Lacey. There is something gratifying about the aches and pains of nature, work, and exploration: sharp rocks piercing your feet, the soreness of overworked muscles, thorny branches scratching your bare legs and arms, your dry throat thirsty for cool water, the wind on your hot skin, blowing through your hair. Something about seeing a barely worn trail right in front of you, only the next step forward on your mind, it's in these moments: I feel infinite.
Thursday, March 29, 2007
hi. i'm trina. i'm sort of a weirdo.
aswwc didn't know what they were getting themselves into. i got over using victorian backgrounds (like my last), and returned to my love and fascination with the sea. my artwork is really bizarre. i just realized that today. i could never do advertising. here's why. which one do you like better? ha ha ha. no. i'm not even joking. really. which one?
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
she sits and waits, seething, blooming
Last night I prayed, with my eyes shut tight.
"Lord," I said. "I know You know just who I am, come define me."
What should I value? I asked myself this.
I listened to my own desires, impulses, plans.
To the voices of disdain, selfishness, gluttony, contempt.
These voices yell and shout, they live and rule me. They are me.
And then I wept.
"Lord," I said. "I know You know just who I am, come define me."
What should I value? I asked myself this.
I listened to my own desires, impulses, plans.
To the voices of disdain, selfishness, gluttony, contempt.
These voices yell and shout, they live and rule me. They are me.
And then I wept.
Sunday, March 25, 2007
running, returning, on and on it goes
It’s a lonely day in the airport. I’m in Portland, and I’ve seen the view, rising above the clouds from the tiny airplane window so many times before. It has lost its charm. I’m sitting here, surprised at how fast spring break came and went. We left the house for the airport at 6:30am.
This last Saturday was fantastic. Alane and Mia drove up from LA and Leo down from Oakhurst, and we spent the day lazy in the Yeo house, like many memorable Sabbaths before. When the night approached, we played board games all night. Balderdash is my favorite, although I always lose. I think it’d be better if I played with people who didn’t know me so well. The game required we make a movie synopsis for the title “Expresso Bongo” (not like the coffee. But most of us used it anyways) – and everyone neglected to vote for my answer as of: a group of beatniks travel from coffee shop to coffee shop, bringing their love for literature, poetry, and jazz to the streets. Leo, Alane, and my mom said they knew who it was (me!) from the minute they heard the word: beatnik, soo they knew it couldn’t be the real, right answer. Well ppsssshhh. And Mia said, “I’ve seen a bunch of indie movies about the same thing, and they’ve all been horrible.” Thanks. And apparently my acronym for CROC as Caution! Rabid Octopi Crossing! is illegitimate, simply because, Octopi can’t get rabies, and where would their mouths foam – under the water? I ended up somewhere in the middle of the losers and winners (which I prefer to dominate, but this is the comfortable usual). Jeanne swept clean of the win, after getting 6 votes for ZUM in weird words, defining it as a flute-like instrument originating from Ghana that you play by blowing into it with your nostrils. No one voted for the actual correct answer, which was a crossbreed between a cow and a yak. I laughed so much playing this game with these people. Laughter really can be painful at times. There were several times I found myself unable to breathe, aches erupting from my sides, and while this is a downfall to laughter, I can’t seem to feel bitter about it. These people make life so wonderful!
Alane and I went to Blackbird Studios to get art supplies. She likes it when I read her Dave Eggers, and so I did, aloud, on the drive. I read her the short story: “Climbing to the Window, Pretending to Dance” from How We Are Hungry, his stories have no real resolution, they're sort of anti-climactic. I like that about them. They are realistic and sincere. She likes how he is expressive, and quixotic, even in daily life, his little details, about driving alone down the I-5. He likes to see the faces of people driving the opposite way, imagining their lives, wishing them well or ill. I’m not the only dreamer in this world. This gives me reassurance and a simple comfort.
This last Saturday was fantastic. Alane and Mia drove up from LA and Leo down from Oakhurst, and we spent the day lazy in the Yeo house, like many memorable Sabbaths before. When the night approached, we played board games all night. Balderdash is my favorite, although I always lose. I think it’d be better if I played with people who didn’t know me so well. The game required we make a movie synopsis for the title “Expresso Bongo” (not like the coffee. But most of us used it anyways) – and everyone neglected to vote for my answer as of: a group of beatniks travel from coffee shop to coffee shop, bringing their love for literature, poetry, and jazz to the streets. Leo, Alane, and my mom said they knew who it was (me!) from the minute they heard the word: beatnik, soo they knew it couldn’t be the real, right answer. Well ppsssshhh. And Mia said, “I’ve seen a bunch of indie movies about the same thing, and they’ve all been horrible.” Thanks. And apparently my acronym for CROC as Caution! Rabid Octopi Crossing! is illegitimate, simply because, Octopi can’t get rabies, and where would their mouths foam – under the water? I ended up somewhere in the middle of the losers and winners (which I prefer to dominate, but this is the comfortable usual). Jeanne swept clean of the win, after getting 6 votes for ZUM in weird words, defining it as a flute-like instrument originating from Ghana that you play by blowing into it with your nostrils. No one voted for the actual correct answer, which was a crossbreed between a cow and a yak. I laughed so much playing this game with these people. Laughter really can be painful at times. There were several times I found myself unable to breathe, aches erupting from my sides, and while this is a downfall to laughter, I can’t seem to feel bitter about it. These people make life so wonderful!
Alane and I went to Blackbird Studios to get art supplies. She likes it when I read her Dave Eggers, and so I did, aloud, on the drive. I read her the short story: “Climbing to the Window, Pretending to Dance” from How We Are Hungry, his stories have no real resolution, they're sort of anti-climactic. I like that about them. They are realistic and sincere. She likes how he is expressive, and quixotic, even in daily life, his little details, about driving alone down the I-5. He likes to see the faces of people driving the opposite way, imagining their lives, wishing them well or ill. I’m not the only dreamer in this world. This gives me reassurance and a simple comfort.
Monday, March 19, 2007
the day and things
photos from today's activities. minus the bro staring out at the ocean, photo from another day in san diego, but added merely in wishful thinking. different spring break times are stupid :(
hold these hearts courageously / as we walk into this dark place / stand steadfast beside me and see that love is the province of the brave [tv on the radio]
hold these hearts courageously / as we walk into this dark place / stand steadfast beside me and see that love is the province of the brave [tv on the radio]
Saturday, March 17, 2007
the earth laughs in flowers
i like going on afternoon walks with my mom (pictured below. jumping)
oh how i've missed home!
♥ the yeo house and everything in it
♥ shelby dog at my feet on the breakfast bar
♥ the walls painted red in my room
♥ chinese paper lanterns hanging from the ceiling
♥ the beach only 1 mile away, that I rode to on my bike this afternoon
♥ the surf shops, beach bums, hippie kids, familiar fog in the morning
♥ God's blessings = my family. the laughter and joy my own home creates
I miss you friends. Carley Brown your blog post made my day!
oh how i've missed home!
♥ the yeo house and everything in it
♥ shelby dog at my feet on the breakfast bar
♥ the walls painted red in my room
♥ chinese paper lanterns hanging from the ceiling
♥ the beach only 1 mile away, that I rode to on my bike this afternoon
♥ the surf shops, beach bums, hippie kids, familiar fog in the morning
♥ God's blessings = my family. the laughter and joy my own home creates
I miss you friends. Carley Brown your blog post made my day!
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
óreiða, ruglingur, fát, uppnám
Listening to Gustavo Santaolalla, and it gives me humiliating epiphanies. I am always unhappy when my eyes are on myself. I'm sorry that I am broken and selfish, I'm sorry I am sick and dissembling. I would wish back for seconds and moments, and have my regrets, but instead I can only change the future.
Aaron Grable told me tonight that Josue Galan is going to ask me to join the Mask Staff. This made my night! I would love it! Those guys are so talented, they blow my mind! Sometimes I have no idea what my dreams are. I won't be here. I'll be in India. And I've changed my major. And part of me wants to change my mind. A part of me feels like I'm turning my back on important opportunities, ones God might even have in His plan for me to embrace. Living and breathing, I am always the shining epitome of confusion.
btw. Reuben and Charlie and Thomas and Zach. Thank you for a fun night - even with such a "man" movie. I do think I handled it well. Yes, I did like 300 better than I expected. Thanks for the invite and ticket buy that helped make it happen (to Reub).
Aaron Grable told me tonight that Josue Galan is going to ask me to join the Mask Staff. This made my night! I would love it! Those guys are so talented, they blow my mind! Sometimes I have no idea what my dreams are. I won't be here. I'll be in India. And I've changed my major. And part of me wants to change my mind. A part of me feels like I'm turning my back on important opportunities, ones God might even have in His plan for me to embrace. Living and breathing, I am always the shining epitome of confusion.
btw. Reuben and Charlie and Thomas and Zach. Thank you for a fun night - even with such a "man" movie. I do think I handled it well. Yes, I did like 300 better than I expected. Thanks for the invite and ticket buy that helped make it happen (to Reub).
Sunday, March 11, 2007
the last restful sabbath before finals
a couple of things first:
and the end of my final design project: click here (and please don't try it unless you have a mac. the layers load all wrong on I.E.)
(today I - which now is technically yesterday)
♥ woke up fairly early and had devotionals, Anil wrote me a 5 step plan to seeking and finding God's will, all from his memory while he was driving in his car, number 1 being that we need to completely swallow our own desires with that of God's (john7:17 - anyone who wants to do the will of God will know whether my teaching is from God or merely my own), seeking that and that alone, I also read a refreshing insight by Oswald Chambers: the gist of it being our need to get into the habit of steadily referring everything back to Him; instead of this we make our common sense decisions and after just ask God to bless them
♥ went to village church to do my deviant behavior project for Psych, and then went to see my friend Serena preach at Mission SDA Church near Pendleton, she spoke on the different ways that God expresses His love to us, and these people there were so sweet and appreciative and hospitable! I was so blessed!
♥ befriended two little boys at lion's park today, Kalum and Austin, and there are few things more gratifying than recieving the genuine love of a child, we played catch, and soccer, and they just had that raw energy that children have, that simplicity, that heart; they were rough around the edges but so sweet; Kalum climbed up the jungle gym: "my brother is a demon!" - "hey, don't say such things" i reprimanded. "no, but really, he is! he hit me in the head with a baseball bat and split my head open" Austin just laughed as Kalum pushed his hair out of his forehead to show me his scar. "because some girls dared him to, and he wanted to impress them!" "hey now, girls aren't worth that" "how would you know?!", kalum screamed. "Oh wait, you are one!" They then asked me to help them join the group of college kids playing soccer, and I know from their faces that it made their day to be able to play. A fellow student asked if they had come with or belonged to me (and not the "belonging" that i birthed them, but more the familiarity, which was so heartwarming!). I can't wait to have children of my own (and yet I am in NO rush for that to happen), I know from my genetics that there is no way they won't be absolutely crazy.
♥ we walked several blocks and back to Lion's park and while we usually drive, we declined several ride offers because it was just so beautiful and warm out, J Pohle, Serena, and I, these girls are so special to me!
♥ studied with Phil and Alban (for shorter than we hoped) at Whitman Library, they're such quality guys, and my buddies
♥ watched dodgeball tournaments for a little while here and there
♥ realized i'm more relaxed and at ease with finals this quarter, and my quarter is harder than the last, this means my grades might be the show if it. yikes!
and the end of my final design project: click here (and please don't try it unless you have a mac. the layers load all wrong on I.E.)
(today I - which now is technically yesterday)
♥ woke up fairly early and had devotionals, Anil wrote me a 5 step plan to seeking and finding God's will, all from his memory while he was driving in his car, number 1 being that we need to completely swallow our own desires with that of God's (john7:17 - anyone who wants to do the will of God will know whether my teaching is from God or merely my own), seeking that and that alone, I also read a refreshing insight by Oswald Chambers: the gist of it being our need to get into the habit of steadily referring everything back to Him; instead of this we make our common sense decisions and after just ask God to bless them
♥ went to village church to do my deviant behavior project for Psych, and then went to see my friend Serena preach at Mission SDA Church near Pendleton, she spoke on the different ways that God expresses His love to us, and these people there were so sweet and appreciative and hospitable! I was so blessed!
♥ befriended two little boys at lion's park today, Kalum and Austin, and there are few things more gratifying than recieving the genuine love of a child, we played catch, and soccer, and they just had that raw energy that children have, that simplicity, that heart; they were rough around the edges but so sweet; Kalum climbed up the jungle gym: "my brother is a demon!" - "hey, don't say such things" i reprimanded. "no, but really, he is! he hit me in the head with a baseball bat and split my head open" Austin just laughed as Kalum pushed his hair out of his forehead to show me his scar. "because some girls dared him to, and he wanted to impress them!" "hey now, girls aren't worth that" "how would you know?!", kalum screamed. "Oh wait, you are one!" They then asked me to help them join the group of college kids playing soccer, and I know from their faces that it made their day to be able to play. A fellow student asked if they had come with or belonged to me (and not the "belonging" that i birthed them, but more the familiarity, which was so heartwarming!). I can't wait to have children of my own (and yet I am in NO rush for that to happen), I know from my genetics that there is no way they won't be absolutely crazy.
♥ we walked several blocks and back to Lion's park and while we usually drive, we declined several ride offers because it was just so beautiful and warm out, J Pohle, Serena, and I, these girls are so special to me!
♥ studied with Phil and Alban (for shorter than we hoped) at Whitman Library, they're such quality guys, and my buddies
♥ watched dodgeball tournaments for a little while here and there
♥ realized i'm more relaxed and at ease with finals this quarter, and my quarter is harder than the last, this means my grades might be the show if it. yikes!
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
my song is love, love to the loveless, shown
I know I often have pointless updates, but once in awhile, beauty and joy will break through the thick exterior of apathy. I saw a middle-aged woman, walking on her lonesome, break into hysterical laughter at her own thoughts. I saw two young boys running after one another, dancing, skipping, and jumping down the street, sweat on their brow, sheer joy and love on their faces, thus reminding me what truly lies inside of our souls (and not that I believe we're 'good' on our own, because we're sinful and the Bible says on our best as of filthy rags, but I believe that God dwells within our souls, and the Holy Spirit is always with us, and we often don't realize it, and more than that, we were made in His image, made to mirror and reflect what He is, and He is love, He made it, He is it) , and while our cynicism decieves us into thinking this love rarely surfaces, it's surprising and refreshing and delightful to see how much and often it really does. Life is beautiful. God blesses.
Sunday, March 04, 2007
an inconvenient truth
you thought i was going to talk about global warming. but instead i'm moping about at the elementary name-calling of Logan Saterdal, who apparently had a couple of accusations to point in my direction today in the WWC library. "Dirty Hippie" and "Whale Humper" were only 2 in the lengthy list of insults, just because I care about the future of our planet, and the state of our environment (and am contemplating if I believe the truths to his statements are inconvenient or if their is any truth at all to any of them, thinking abour renaming this post, because there certainly isn't any to the act of me humping a whale, and an allusion to al gore sort of doesn't work). But really, I think his plans of evil are working, because it's tempting me from my usual peaceful temperament, closer to the combative, because whoever disses on the whales is most definitely going down!
btw. Ryan - you're blog still isn't updated! Music swaps make me happy (thanks Alban), right now I'm listening to Kings of Convenience (makes me miss you Nikki, even more). I also really love these girls (and that penguin. his real name is Wedsworth, but I call him Winston).
btw. Ryan - you're blog still isn't updated! Music swaps make me happy (thanks Alban), right now I'm listening to Kings of Convenience (makes me miss you Nikki, even more). I also really love these girls (and that penguin. his real name is Wedsworth, but I call him Winston).
5 is a good number
treena's humble opinions on popular culture:
5 bands you should listen to (or download off hype machine. right now):
1. Beirut
Zach Condon has the magical ability to make you feel like you've just stepped into a bright red and yellow striped tent at a circus, moved to Italy, or are in the midst of a Balkan gypsy orchestra. either or anyway, it's a wonderful, beautiful, hypnotic adventure
2. Mewithoutyou
People ask me why I love this band so much, because Aaron Weiss does not sing, but rather grunts and screams and bellows (which is not standard treena style). Yet the man is so anti-establishment, yet so raw, and so sincere. He eats out of trashcans and rejects hygienic standards, and he makes my heart tingle, he writes quality lyrics for sure, one-liners like: "put music to our troubles and we'll dance them away" and has some great guitar riffs. listen to: "tie me up! untie me!"
3. Broken Social Scene
great canadian band. buoyant. chill. enjoyable.
4. Sigur Rós
just mesmerizing and so epic. the sound is huge. fills my imagination and day-dreams with silly adventure
5. Sufjan Stevens
nuff' said. i'm listening to his christmas albums as we speak.
5 books you should read:
1. Dave Eggars - Heart Breaking Work of Staggering Genius
He has a writing workshop at the back of a pirate retail store in San Francisco. I just wish Might Magazine was still around to read
2. E.E. Cummings - 95 Poems
the goal of living is to grow. the aim of waking is to dream. in time of all sweet things beyond, whatever mind may comprehend, remember seek (forgetting find)
2. David Sedaris - Me Talk Pretty One Day
you can't deny his talent and gift to pull humor out of the sad and the mundane. it's amazing
3. Stephen Schbosky - Perks of Being A Wallflower
And in that moment, I swear we were infinite.
4. Pablo Neruda - Extravagaria
I once stole a textbook out of the storage closet of my mom's school just to find a poem written by him. Extravagario, is nonsensical or, rather, supersensical, being a mixture of the Spanish words extravagante, extravagar, vagar, extraviar, and variar
5. Jack Kerouac - On The Road
oh, the only people for me are the mad ones! the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved! I remember reading this book simultaneously with a biography of C.S. Lewis (not written by C.S. Lewis), but just comparing the roughness and cynicism that it inhabited, rather than the free buoyant spirit of Kerouac, one who "never yawns or says a commonplace thing, but burns, burns, burns like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars" this is how i choose to live, with this sort of energy, even if not with the same values
5 movies you should watch:
1. eternal sunshine of a spotless mind
thought-provoking and imaginative. nice work kaufman. nice work gondry. you guys maintain my favorite.
2. thank you for smoking
oh. the lobbyist. just so hilarious and intelligent and witty. the art and power of argument.
3. lost in translation
a unique and introspective look into very cool relationship, full of meaningful moments, even if argued anti-climactic. i thought it was wonderful.
4. the science of sleep
so neat and imaginative, distinguishing dreams and reality, just aesthetically so stimulating
5. love me if you dare: are you game?
i just love the witty, random dialogue of the french. top-notch foreign film. recommended to fans of amelie.
5 stores you should pay a visit:
1. ameoba records
i think they have 2, one in hollywood, the other san francisco - it'd be rad if their was one in seattle. it's just the most massive used record store, just wildly eclectic, massive selection, they have absolutely everything for super cheap
2. whole foods market
frickin' good (oh man. i used an euphemism). no, but really
3. therapy
wonderful and quirky, my favorite botique. you know in SLO they have a picture of a banana peel in a plastic ziploc bag signed by Karen O from yeah yeah yeahs up on wall. suh-sweet. so hip.
4. buffalo exchange
the best thrift store ever. really.
5. barnes and nobles
a slave to the books. i could just go there and chill every single day of my life
5 restaurants you should eat at:
1. Shin's Sushi Bar
I like philly and eel roll. yum.
2. Taj Palace
oh. monday night is buffet night. give us a couple extra baskets of naan.
3. Thai Kitchen
those hole in the wall thai places where you literally feel like you're sitting in some thai families' kitchen. it's de-licious!
4. Jaffa's Cafe
top-notch Greek food, a family favorite for sure
5. Oasis
mediterannean food, has the best lemon chicken and lamb, and vegetable cous cous, also cool ambiance, sometimes with belly dancers, my brother hates that
5 bands you should listen to (or download off hype machine. right now):
1. Beirut
Zach Condon has the magical ability to make you feel like you've just stepped into a bright red and yellow striped tent at a circus, moved to Italy, or are in the midst of a Balkan gypsy orchestra. either or anyway, it's a wonderful, beautiful, hypnotic adventure
2. Mewithoutyou
People ask me why I love this band so much, because Aaron Weiss does not sing, but rather grunts and screams and bellows (which is not standard treena style). Yet the man is so anti-establishment, yet so raw, and so sincere. He eats out of trashcans and rejects hygienic standards, and he makes my heart tingle, he writes quality lyrics for sure, one-liners like: "put music to our troubles and we'll dance them away" and has some great guitar riffs. listen to: "tie me up! untie me!"
3. Broken Social Scene
great canadian band. buoyant. chill. enjoyable.
4. Sigur Rós
just mesmerizing and so epic. the sound is huge. fills my imagination and day-dreams with silly adventure
5. Sufjan Stevens
nuff' said. i'm listening to his christmas albums as we speak.
5 books you should read:
1. Dave Eggars - Heart Breaking Work of Staggering Genius
He has a writing workshop at the back of a pirate retail store in San Francisco. I just wish Might Magazine was still around to read
2. E.E. Cummings - 95 Poems
the goal of living is to grow. the aim of waking is to dream. in time of all sweet things beyond, whatever mind may comprehend, remember seek (forgetting find)
2. David Sedaris - Me Talk Pretty One Day
you can't deny his talent and gift to pull humor out of the sad and the mundane. it's amazing
3. Stephen Schbosky - Perks of Being A Wallflower
And in that moment, I swear we were infinite.
4. Pablo Neruda - Extravagaria
I once stole a textbook out of the storage closet of my mom's school just to find a poem written by him. Extravagario, is nonsensical or, rather, supersensical, being a mixture of the Spanish words extravagante, extravagar, vagar, extraviar, and variar
5. Jack Kerouac - On The Road
oh, the only people for me are the mad ones! the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved! I remember reading this book simultaneously with a biography of C.S. Lewis (not written by C.S. Lewis), but just comparing the roughness and cynicism that it inhabited, rather than the free buoyant spirit of Kerouac, one who "never yawns or says a commonplace thing, but burns, burns, burns like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars" this is how i choose to live, with this sort of energy, even if not with the same values
5 movies you should watch:
1. eternal sunshine of a spotless mind
thought-provoking and imaginative. nice work kaufman. nice work gondry. you guys maintain my favorite.
2. thank you for smoking
oh. the lobbyist. just so hilarious and intelligent and witty. the art and power of argument.
3. lost in translation
a unique and introspective look into very cool relationship, full of meaningful moments, even if argued anti-climactic. i thought it was wonderful.
4. the science of sleep
so neat and imaginative, distinguishing dreams and reality, just aesthetically so stimulating
5. love me if you dare: are you game?
i just love the witty, random dialogue of the french. top-notch foreign film. recommended to fans of amelie.
5 stores you should pay a visit:
1. ameoba records
i think they have 2, one in hollywood, the other san francisco - it'd be rad if their was one in seattle. it's just the most massive used record store, just wildly eclectic, massive selection, they have absolutely everything for super cheap
2. whole foods market
frickin' good (oh man. i used an euphemism). no, but really
3. therapy
wonderful and quirky, my favorite botique. you know in SLO they have a picture of a banana peel in a plastic ziploc bag signed by Karen O from yeah yeah yeahs up on wall. suh-sweet. so hip.
4. buffalo exchange
the best thrift store ever. really.
5. barnes and nobles
a slave to the books. i could just go there and chill every single day of my life
5 restaurants you should eat at:
1. Shin's Sushi Bar
I like philly and eel roll. yum.
2. Taj Palace
oh. monday night is buffet night. give us a couple extra baskets of naan.
3. Thai Kitchen
those hole in the wall thai places where you literally feel like you're sitting in some thai families' kitchen. it's de-licious!
4. Jaffa's Cafe
top-notch Greek food, a family favorite for sure
5. Oasis
mediterannean food, has the best lemon chicken and lamb, and vegetable cous cous, also cool ambiance, sometimes with belly dancers, my brother hates that
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