InTransit: What do you do with your wait? Relevant Magazine had an ad with this idea attached, being content with the timing of God's plans. I would further explain my situation, but I'd feel too ridiculous and pathetic to even start. Modest Mouse has a song, titled: "Heart Cooks Brain", and I'm just realizing how much truth it holds, and how, in my case, and with my personality, it hurts a tremendous amount. I woke up this morning, audibly repeating God's promises to me, trying desperately to convince my cynical heart to trust Him, to let complete service to my maker become my living, breathing reality. Patience is a virtue. So is contentment, and self-control.I remember a certain discussion with a friend. He said, even being single, he was surprised how much he expends himself emotionally to anyone who evokes that sort of attraction and vulnerability in him. Aaron Weiss explains why he chooses never to marry, honoring the teachings of Paul (some say these passages of scripture are often misunderstood, i still think his thoughts are beautiful though): I see it as a sort of a concession I'll have to make if I don't have the faith to find contentment in my God alone. That I may need such a compromise seems likely, as I've always had a passion for that sort of union, and I get lonely. I don't so much mean sexually, but mostly I long for companionship and a deep friendship. If God is willing though, maybe I could find that in the Holy Ghost.
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I haven't looked closely at the teachings of Paul on marriage, but the teachings of God seem pretty clear. You don't even have to look beyond Genesis. He purposely set the desire in humans to be connected to Him as well as a human partner. Even Nazirite vows didn't exclude marriage. I don't think He wants to fill a void that He created for someone else to occupy. Just my random thoughts on the matter.
cheers!
its all about loving yourself. skeemer said 'i dont think He wants to fill a void the He created for someone else to occupy' thats so true. there is no void in someone. He is always there, in your life, occupying it. not a void, but your life as a whole. and He's there occupying it to help you love yourself and let some room in for someone else to love you and help occupy it. whether it be someone for marriage or a life long partner or friend. whomever it is; you have to be patient. i am struggling with that right now. i had thought i had it all figured out when i got married to breezy's dad, but i lost myself and my path and i grew very impatient. i wanted the whole companion thing right then and there and in doing that i found someone that didn't give me any fulfillment. i didn't love myself either. right now, though; i am seeing more of myself and becoming closer to Him and in doing that He is testing my patience. but i am ok with that because i know i am valuing my life and more importantly His word. just my thoughts. may or may not be helpful or even pertain to your posting, but hey! food for thought. you're a beautiful person with a beautiful soul. any decent human being will know that. keep that beautiful smile girl!
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