let me share with you my current feelings....

I feel hot and cold and a little bit disconsolate, like i've just swallowed a teaspoon of crushed red pepper, and i'm choking on the fumes and the flakes trying to make their way down my tiny constricting throat. Why do I feel so much this way? Maybe because I'm over-emotional, and I'm ruining it all based on ephemeral feelings and first impressions, and I'm trying to be everything and everyone, but myself, and it's emotionally draining to the point, where I feel like I'm barely existing. Over-reacting and over-exaggerating. Yes. Both. Don't tell me to calm down.